the Chair

As we get closer to my due date, I've been experiencing some fears. I suspect it's normal to have some fears about labor, about bringing a newborn home, about how it will no longer be the two of us, but three. I think it's because it's new, everything is new and thats scary. I like to think I'm an out of the box kinda girl, who's not afraid to try new things and experiences, but alas I'm more of a chicken when it comes to new things. I tend to gravitate towards what is comfortable and safe and familiar. So pregnancy sure has thrown me for a loop!
I can look back to the first moment I found out we were expecting, wow that was scary. I'm also realizing my fears are really only in my head, I think I make them so much bigger up there than they really are. I remember thinking that it must be the most awful thing to be sick when your pregnant, and while it wasn't pleasant I got through it and it truly was a short time in the entirety of my life. Isn't it just like something Satan would do- to prey on my emotions making things seem bigger and scarier than they really are? It's these fears that bring me back to Jesus feet, praying for strength to move ahead. How much I would have missed out on in my life if I'd held back.
I can look at my experience at working with the teens in our church, going on mission trips. Something definitely uncomfortable and unfamiliar, but what a blessing they were.
Then there is the undeniable way God has continued to show Himself to Jonah and I throughout this pregnancy. I'm trusting You Lord...even when I feel scared for the unknown, I'm hanging in there!
I can physically see so many blessings from God, and it makes me feel loved and almost overwhelmed.
The latest blessing is our purchase of a glider and ottoman from Craigslist. We had been looking for months and months and continued to hold out for the best price, the color choice and more importantly the brand we wanted. It was tough too, we saw many priced higher, and when we did find one we would like, it was was gone that day. So we waited...I prayed for it, and we waited some more.
I finally got in touch with a seller right before our trip to NY.  Literally this was a day before we left, and we could go see it that night, but after talking to the lady she said she wasn't in a hurry to sell it and we could see it when we got back the next week.
Well once we came back it took about a week to reconnect with her, I thought it would be gone by then.
Lo and behold we found time to drive over and check it out and wouldn't you know it was what we were looking for? And for a bargain price too!
We've cleaned it, and loved on it (Jonah had to play with the lock mechanism a bit, and made it work correctly), and we touched up a couple scratches, but it's as good as new now. And here I sit relaxing in this chair. Whenever we walk in I'm reminded of what a blessing it is to have it. There it is our blessing sitting in the corner. Thank you Lord for things that point us to You, even if they are simply things.